253 Still low

WOW!!  STILL 187--I can't imagine why. I've been totally off track.  This is NOT good for me. IT makes me think I can eat anything I want and still lose weight and therefore more resentful of any weight loss plan. But I'm getting better---I'm beginning to accept that it IS a lot of work to lose the weight to begin with, but perhaps maintenence is not going to be as awful as I fear.  This 187 is probably due to muscle mass being lost--but even still it's nice to see. It's also due I'm sure, to having lost the weight SOOOO slowly.  And I'm glad for that.  I think both physically AND psychologically I'll be ready to drop another 10-15 before I stall again.  I'm hoping for a lot of exercise next week in Hawaii!!!