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Another thing that happened on my trip was to see my poor sister up close and personal. She's completely out of control in her weight and other things too.  Food-wise she was pretty unbelievable--pop, pop and more pop and cookies and candy and cake and chips pretty much around the clock. She ate very little of anything that I would consider real food. A burger and fries is about as real as it got.  Anyway, I was thinking about a better lifestyle for her and how unsatisfying it would be for her to give up pop or any of the treats. She isn't going to be happy with toning down her food. She doesn't WANT just one pop or just one or two treats a day.  The whole fun is to guzzle pop by the gallon and eat whatever she wants whenever she wants.  We have the same genetics--truly there but for the grace of God I go.  But it was oddly encouraging too in a selfish way. MY natural eating habits--even at their worst are MUCH better than hers. I'm not deprived or using will power.  On the contrary, I'd be very unhappy--not to mention sick, if I drank so much pop and ate so much sugar. I would WANT something different right away!! This gives me hope that someday, when I lose this weight that my habits will be better still and it won't be a matter of so much will power and always eating less than I want (which is how ww feels--always less than I want).  I will WANT more veggies, I will WANT more exercise and one cookie will be plenty--more would be unsatisfying and cloyingly sweet. blech.  But it IS a journey to get to that point, and until one gets to that point it IS profoundly unsatisfying. I dont WANT a wrap and 6 olives! I want a wrap and as many olives as I want and maybe some chips too and a cookie!  But someday, someday, someday I will WANT better things. I already do a little bit.