245 maintaining

Life goes at a whirlwind pace. Trying to get this Hawaii trip off the ground, trying (and failing) not to overthink my family. Anyway, somehow I've been maintaining my weight loss!  Hooray!  187 last Friday. I'm going to have to be careful. Weight watchers has changed their program again as usual--reducing points but offering nothing that would make me feel less hostile. I think it's just the way they phrase things that puts my back up.  I have to consciously remember that no one is holding a gun to my head to make me do the plan. I think I've been eating a little out of sheer rebellion--which is silly, I'm in charge.  However, other things seem to be positive---we had cobb salad yesterday and I didn't want a great big one, so I made a smaller (though still plenty big) and was satisfied--all the more amazing because I forgot to get blue cheese dressing--so I had italian with blue cheese crumbles--far less fattening and still really good.  I'm getting an inkling that as I lose weight I really will WANT to eat less. Not as a matter of will power at all, but in the same way that I wouldn't WANT to eat a four pound steak right now---it's just too much and doesn't sound appealing.