So glad

200 today--that's encouraging. But I'm not really 200. Probably it's a few pounds more--I weighed low, because yesterday was a flavor point day and BOY was I starved!! I'm incredibly grateful that I don't have to do insane programs like that unless I want to. FP is helpful from time to time. It's good for me to have a salad for lunch and fish for dinner from time to time. But it really was too low to keep up. Today is a Hungry Girl day--much easier to keep up than FP, but I'm still hungry. We're going out to dinner tonight and I intend to enjoy it--which will put my weight up to 202 or 203, but as long as it's trending downwards, I'm good.

I just keep thinking about others who have it so much harder than I do. Who have to be so strict with their intake. It's a good illustration to me of how being obedient sets you free. The skinniest girl in my office never has to count calories or worry about her weight. She is obedient when it comes to food---she eats whatever she wants with an eye toward good nutrition and STOPS when she knows she's had enough. Because she can stop, she is free to be thin without undue stress.  

I have trouble with the stopping part. Because I am not entirely willing to be obedient and use common sense when it comes to food, I must use additional rules and restrictions to keep me from blowing up to gigantic sizes. It's like being a little kid, who must be confined to the backyard, because they don't know better than to run out into the street.

But THANKFULLY, MERCIFULLY I AM willing to be at least somewhat obedient. I can and do stop sometimes. I do have many good habits, and there are some foody things I simply wouldn't do (like eat a dozen doughnuts in one sitting). And because I am somewhat willing to be obedient to the laws of good health, I get to be somewhat free. I get to enjoy food!! I CAN have a cookie, or a restaraunt or a vacation. I CAN eat things that I like EVERY SINGLE DAY even!!

Someday I will learn to be obedient with things more important than food  and then I'll be free in every sense.