Darn it! I thought I'd been doing so well---and I have, but I think a major reason I have been doing well is that I've had a massive head cold coming on which must have suppressed my appetite a little. I'll take what help I can get, but i wish it had all been me.
Seriously though. I think there is a real difference between people who are naturally thin and those of us who have to fight. I really think the naturally thin people feel like I did yesterday. I'm not at all nauseous and feel just fine stomach-wise, but I just wasn't all that interested in food. I felt hungry at meal times. I ate what I liked--which was a moderate amount, and then was done. I made cookies. I had one. ONE. Later, I had another, but it wouldn't have been a big deal to skip it. That has to be what thin people feel like all the time. It would be amazing to go through life like that!!
I'm going to have faith that in the next life, whatever is out of balance here is going to be corrected and I WILL feel like that all the time. I always picture heaven as a place of amazing food where I can eat whatever I like. But surely heaven isn't a place of out of control Romen-esqe style gluttony. That is not a very beautiful picture. I will continue to fight the good fight here and hope for relief someday.
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