138 Forgot lunch

Crud. Remembered to bring the bills but forgot my lunch. Luckily, we're between semesters so the burger places are closed. I went upstairs and got a chef's salad--yummy--with fat-free dressing--boring and unsatisfying. Oh well, it won't kill me. I also got a nutty granola bar and a banana to fill me up. Today is a long day. After work I'll walk home, and immediatley go visiting teaching, then straight to harp lesson (my VT is a talker) and hopefully have time to run to Subways and then go to a flash mob rehearsal--FUN!!! Tomorrow is the weekend thank goodness.

I'm still feeling a oppressed about Riley's baptism, but I think I'm making much more heavy weather out of it than necessary. Ultimatley, it's not even my decision. Thank goodness!! It will mean a hard phone call to the bishop and Christine and a hard email to Dad and that is all from my point of view. I don't like it, but I can do it. I feel as if I'm growing stronger emotionally. Being in the RS presidency is unbelievable. The burdens that people carry are amazing---nobody escapes it seems. I spoke to someone who teaches the lady whose son killed himself last Easter. Turns out she's the perfect person to understand because her sister had killed herself the year before--she recommended that another younger sister be called in to help because she seemed to connect well, probably because her father had killed himself when she was a teen.  Good grief.  There are only 114 sisters in the ward--three of them having a close connection with suicide seems an awfully high percentage to me. I just hope God isn't preparing me to deal with a suicide of a close person of my own.

Food-wise I'm still treading water. It's not my focus, but I've been on track anyway. I love that our bodies will respond even if our minds are elsewhere. I feel as heavy as a rock, and I probably will be up this week, but that's ok. I'm staying on course as best as I can and eventually it will show. I'll just be glad when the baptism is over with--which is a horrible way to feel about something that should be a happy occasion.