139 Not up!

DOWN!!! I went down another pound! 189!!!  I love shifting into a new set of numbers. And I love that mentally, I didn't have to "will" this into being. My mind and heart have certainly been everywhere else this week. I went through the motions--and it was enough! This is especially gratifying considering all the food I inhaled last Saturday (boy was that good).

I was surprised that yesterday's salad for lunch was actually satisfying. I think I'm slowly adjusting to lite and fat-free dressings--at least the Italian kind. At home we discovered Ken's light steak house dressing.  Anyway--being satisfied brings up a little resistance all its own. In my mind I guess I've always had an "us and them" kind mentality and have taken a kind of pride in it. I've always belonged to the "us" group. The group that knows what it is to really enjoy a good pizza feast. The "us" group never eats diet dressings (blech), and we sneer at those who "can't" finish a restaraunt meal. We are adventurous eaters and usually good cooks. We appreciate real cheese, we make THE brownies to die for and have little respect for anyone who doesn't have the sense to enjoy the good things in life.

The "them" group usually looks really good and we envy their clothes and bodies with all of our cholesterol burdened hearts. They get up early to work out (while we get to sleep in), they do things like eat salads for lunch, get full after three bites at a restaraunt and think that mediocre brownies are something special.

It's weird to transition into being one of "them".  Doing things like having that salad for lunch yesterday is clearly a "them" thing to do.  I'll have to remember that "them" is a big group of people. Some of them ARE sadly limited in their food enjoyment and discovery. But others, like my friend Sarah who is a superstar athlete, make a fudge brownie cake to die for. One reason Sarah exercises as she does is specifically so she CAN enjoy all the things I love--full fat butters, cheeses and specialty desserts. That's the kind of "them" I can appreciate.

And what's so wonderful about being unsatisfied with a normal portion anyway? Since when did gluttony become something to be proud of? Gluttony was one of the original seven deadly sins. I can still become a true gourmand if I want to be--that is someone who loves discovering great food and is very discriminating. I probably will never have the money to actually become a gourmand--after all real truffle oils from Italy are very expensive, but I do not have to give up appreciating great food. And I don't need to give up eating a lot of it (at least from time to time) either!