145 A better day

Ok---today is on track--at least so far. I can't believe how far off I've fallen.  It makes me mad--do I want to sabotage myself? Or is it truly that I'm just in the midst of a major life change? Either way, life is going to change--sometimes for the good, sometimes the bad, and I need to learn to respond without going to pieces on the food. Last night dinner started out fine.  The popcorn was a little weird, but not unreasonable. Dave ate a lot of it though. So I made a little more. Then had a BIG slice of cheese with it. AND chocolate milk. Where did that come from??  Tomorrow is the first weigh day that I do NOT want to weigh. A shame, since last week was so good!  It's ok though.  I will weigh. I will go out to dinner and enjoy being with my husband. On Saturday I will be back to officially tracking online even though it won't be fun because my numbers for the week will be off. Actually, that's silly. Why should I wait. Today I'm trying. I'll put my food in. On Sunday I get start tracking fresh again and get on with business. I'm booking flights to Hawaii today and I want to look and feel as nice as I did in Aruba--knowing that I weigh less than I have in a long time. I have cute fall clothes just this close to looking nice. I want to wear them.  It's nice that the path is always right in front of me to get back on.  I think I'll have to get back to working through the heart to heart book (lds version of OA).  Obviously, I still have some anchors holding me at a higher weight than I want to be and I might need to uncover those before I can reach my goal.

Something I need to voice again is my frustration with traditional diet plans. Talk about setting people up for failure! My Mom's nutrisystem "meals" are about 260 calories! Ok, so you add a yogurt (100 cal), and a salad (50 cal) and you have....drum roll 410 calories. Times three thats 1,230 cal a day. NOT ENOUGH!!! That's the bare minimum doctors are willing to say is healthy. Based on my own experiences with calorie counting I know that 600 calories is what it takes to get me to feeling full. Times that by 3 is 1,800 cal.  The PERFECT amount if I was trying to lose weight as a diabetic. As a normal person trying to maintain a weight of about 150 I should add another 500 or so cal. 2,300 is about right for a moderatley active female, and is actually about what I will naturally choose (see the very beginnings of this blog).