Good grief! The "exceptions" are spinning out of control. No wonder I have such a hard time! April should have been a relatively easy month. There is my birthday and Easter. My birthday is free and I can exercise to handle Easter. But there's also the book club lunch, Catherine's graduation, cake with the university president, and now my co-worker is quitting so there will be another work potluck to wish him well! I think there's some other stuff too, but I can't remember it all just now. I can't skip any of these events and I don't WANT to skip the food. I'm going to need to step things up a bit if I want any freedom to splurge a little on my own terms. I'd like to save up for my popcorn/cheese fix, but it's going to be difficult with all this other stuff getting in the way!
I've decided that there is simply too much wonderful stuff in the world. I read about the 10 worst foods in the world, and they all sound delicious.
However, I'm still on track, and, more importantly, doing well psychologically. I stupidly got on the scale this morning (203). As usual, an infuriating experience, but the fury is much lessened today. I really probably am retaining water, gaining muscle and/or just generally re-adjusting. I'm also reminded (by a kindly nudge from my Heavenly Father) that even 3 pounds a month is terrific progress. And that three pounds is an overall measure--it might be two pounds one month, four pounds the next and so on. As I was walking today I was very aware of all the temptation around me. It's incredible--and oddly comforting. There's obviously nothing wrong with me for being tempted when the world is full of nothing but. It's hard to make good choices, but it's ok that it's hard. Anything worth doing is. I'll be ok.
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