Stupid Scale

Why oh why do I do this to myself? Really, once a month weighing is MORE than enough for me. Actually, I'm doing great and feeling great, clothes are fitting better and even the evil scale reveals a 3 pound loss for April which my brain and good sense thinks is great. My emotions though, are annoyed. I feel thin. I'm hungry, and that's all I get??

Yes.  Weight loss is SLOW, slow, slow, slow, slow, and that's okay. Everyone says that clothes are a better measure anyway. Besides, it WAS my  birthday last week and I ate plenty, and I ate lots of cake on fast Sunday too. And yet, I'm still 3 pounds ahead. I should celebrate!!!  But not with food. YIKES!!! This upcoming week is a diet disaster! Worse, I've been feeling sick and so haven't earned any exercise calories at all!!!

Let's see---tonight there is a wedding reception
tomorrow is my harp recital which ends at lunchtime, which means we'll want to go out for lunch with Dad
Sunday is Easter--plus my family is making a special cake for me
Monday is cake with the Weber State president
Wednesday is a work potluck (the BEST)
Friday is Catherine's graduation--ice-cream afterward and a special dinner for her that night.

And lets not even discuss the leftovers that I'll be wanting!  Good grief! This is April I'll be keeping track, but I really don't think April is a particuarly difficult month.

So what am I going to do? I honestly don't know. For tonight, I've already told Dave that if we go to the reception, I'd prefer to eat someplace like Subways where it's a little easier to control the calories. Unless it's super good reception food, I can usually pass up wedding cake no problem.

Tomorrow--if we go to Famous Dave's I'm doomed. There is NOTHING healthful on that menu. Maybe I'll put my highest calorie day here--and even if lunch goes off the rails, I'll make a point to keep breakfast and dinner on track?

I'll try to earn some extra calories for Easter candy and cake--but I don't think I'll worry about Easter too much. We're having funeral potatoes which I love and that's worrisome because they are uber calorie dense, but I've already set Sunday aside as a day where I can eat where I'm satisfied at the main meal, and have 1 serving of dessert. I know I'll want more of that cake and some candy too. But I'll try to keep in under control and earn those calories.

Monday--I'll put my lowest calorie day here, so the cake won't throw my overall calorie intake too high. If possible, I'll only eat half. (that may or may not be psychologically possible depending on how good the cake is)

Wednesday is simply going to have to be a free day I think. Hopefully, I'll draw one of these out honestly. If not, I think I'll cheat and find one.

Friday, Not too hard--I'll aim to earn some calories, but I can manage a dish of ice-cream, and whatever we have for dinner.

How's that?  I honestly don't know. Does all this represent a real effort or just a whole lot of rationalizing? It's genuinely better than  a crazy food free for all.