zone

Add another party to the April list---a tenure party at the end of the month to celebrate Dave. I fear I might have to use some self-control soon. I'm blessed to have such a happy life!!

Yesterday was great. But it's another testament to the fact that you can't fool the body. I don't care how big the meal is, if the calories aren't there, I know it.  For dinner I had:

A big hard roll, with hummus, grilled veggies and 1 ounce of cheese, 2 baby dill pickles, 42 pretzel sticks, 1/4 cup of onion dip and a huge pear. All this was slightly under 600 cal. I was fine, but could easily have eaten 3 times as much. But it feels great to be doing well. My pants are a little looser today and my face feels thinner. I earned 300 cal of exercise yesterday too. I'm in "the zone." Which is good, but also scary because I haven't really built the safety net yet.

One of the problems with dieting, is that it separates me from true hunger. True, I ignore hunger equally when I'm not dieting--I just eat all the time, but it's a problem if I'm not at least eating in response to real hunger enough because then I'm more likely to suddenly snap out of the zone. For example, today I have a delicious  big lunch planned (buffalo chicken, with salad and blue cheese and a bagel), so I had a light breakfast of a Jimmy Dean's breakfast sandwich. I nuked it, but left the house without it. Dave was so sweet--he came running after me with it. Of course I wanted it, but I'm semi-used to being unsatisfied so I didn't even notice that I hadn't had any breakfast. That's a dangerous place to be.

Maybe an acceptable to me "safety zone" could be what I'm planning to do on Hungry Girl days. Her plan is just a little too calorie low for me, so I've deliberately added extras to the plan to bring it up to around 1500-1600 cal. Maybe I can still "pretend" I'm strictly following the plan as is--but deliberately add what I need to if I need a rest? That way, I'm still aware--I'm still trying--I won't be losing weight, but I'll be able to eat a little more in a hopefully responsible way and hopefully hold the line until I'm ready to take the next plunge downwards.  Still need to think about this.