A buffet

Ugh!!  205.  However, some of that really is muscle from kettlebells and last nights buffet. I'm feeling very fat and dumpy (SHUT UP SUE ELLEN!!!!).  It's okay. If I'm going to lose weight, I'm going to lose it the real way---by changing what I really can, and even though I'm unhappy with the way I look and feel right now, I think I AM making some progress that will eventually result in a healthy weight. I'll explain in a minute. And I'm going to try to be grateful for who and what I am. Sean just posted in great delight that he has reached 305 today!!  I'm truly happy for him. And it is a great reminder that there are many out there who would be thrilled to weight what I do.

Anyway---yesterday

Breakfast: Bagel w cream cheese, 2 strips bacon, oj, milk
Exercise: Good workout. 18 laps and 228 kettle bell swings
Snack: 1/2 sleeve nuts
Lunch: 1 slice Papa John's greek Pepperoni pizza with a pan crust, cabbage salad prbly a 1/3 c blue cheese crumbles (felt like a lot) about 7 olives, sm. pretzel roll with butter. 1 square lindt dk sea salt choc.
Snack: low-fat oatmeal raisin bar.
Dinner: Chuck-A-Rama.  UGH!! I had planned stuffed portobello mushrooms which are very healthy and I like them. But Dad called--he had to come up anyway and wanted to go to dinner. Chuck-a-rama is close (important when Dad is driving) and he likes it. I know I ate too many calories---but on the other hand, I didn't feel compelled to stuff myself silly. And I think that's the point! I ate until I was done both physically and psychologically, and to get to that point did NOT mean that I was groaning on my way out. I also didn't eat the sweet and sour chicken when it turned out not to be very good. That's a big deal--not eating something just because it's there.  Here's what I remember that I ate:
First plate: The worst thing was probably the salad. I do love real blue cheese dressing and since I don't buy it for myself at home I tend to glop it on when I get a chance. Also lots of croutons.
some cornbread
1 BBQ chicken leg
1 coconut shrimp.
Second plate--plate not filled up:
about 6 more coconut shrimp with sauce
sliver of jello salad
sweet and sour chicken (uneaten)
Dessert; German chocolate cake (ate most of it, but left the middle once the frosting ran out. A tiny bit of applecrisp.

See?  I don't think that's too bad for a buffet. But it's more than my body can handle and so I'll pay a price in pounds.

But I love that I wasn't compelled to just shovel it all in. There's hope yet!!