At a loss

I'm at a bit of a loss today. Not physically, unfortunately. Just at loose ends. I had a wonderful weekend with Catherine and didn't bother to write down food. I'm writing down today.

I've wasted a lot of time today because I'm anxious. I finally got Ameriprise to give me access to the accounts I should have had access to all along. I Don'T have access to all the history, so I'm still not quite sure who is supposed to get how much. I have a rough idea. And I've emailed Lisa because I think some of the money is supposed to be hers. The anxiety is coming from the prospect of having to dig through a lot of stuff, or worse, having to ask Lisa to dig, to figure everything out. Also, now that I can see the money, I should be able to get Christine moved into a new home. This is scary for a lot of reasons. All I'm sure of is that the actual getting her moved will be a force 10 stress producing headache. I'm waiting on Lisa for this too because if I can get her moved either Riley will need to switch schools, or Lisa will have to make arrangements. I want to do what's best for Riley and Lisa is the best judge of that.

I hate dealing with money and I really hate dealing with emotionally loaded emails. Ugh!  Meanwhile, I don't have quite enough to do at work, which is kind of nice, but because of anxiety, I'm not using the time very productively. I just don't seem to want to prioritize. As far as non-work stuff---there are a number of things I'd like to do:

Work on the 7 furies of dev math paper (a little anxiety producing itself)
Finish the NYC trip on my blog
Also--add St. George trip once I get the pics uploaded.
Study for my class
Practice drawing.

But I think I'll take a short walk now. It does not help that today I drove to work. I've needed to burn off some stress.