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I continue to be both reasonably on-track, but also sloppy about counting.  I actually missed counting yesterday. It was a long day with a Relief Society meeting at the end of it. When I came home I wanted a gingerbread cookie and one of those 2 pt Halloween chocolates and a glass of milk. Was this within range? Maybe? It annoyed me that I didn't know.  Today I will track and I will know and that makes me feel better. I especially love it when I make plans that include things like snickers bars or sleeves of almonds or cookies.

 I want to get on my soapbox again about issues diet plans never seem to deal with.  I was talking to a friend yesterday who is super overweight. She's perceptive enough to realize that one of the big reasons she's overweight hasn't gone away so it's unlikely that she will lose weight. Another reason is that when she has lost weight in the past her skin gets all loose and saggy everywhere and she's actually grossed out by this. She feels she actually looks better fat than thin--and she's probably right! She'd have a hard time affording surgery. I wish weight loss companies would talk more about the BENEFITS of being overweight. How can a person possibly lose weight if they aren't dealing with the things they are giving up? I haven't even heard the obvious ones--food and exercise dealt with very well.  One of the prime benefits of being overweight for me is the food.  The food is FANTASTIC. Yes, I know a turkey sandwich is better for me than a blue cheese bacon burger. I need more help than the industry offers in wanting the sandwich. Come on WW---I can't turn off the brain that is calling for the burger---news flash---I don't WANT the turkey sandwich.  Anyway, same with exercise--in the short term it feels much better to sleep in than to get up and exercise. Saggy skin is not socially acceptable. Losing weight can upset the comfort of a marriage. And what about clothes? This is a minor one, but it IS a small obsticle.  Yes, it's great to buy new and smaller clothing, but what if you don't have a lot of money? What if you're my friend Jennifer who has invested a great deal of money into great clothes that won't fit anymore? Last weekend I realized that my all time favorite sweatshirt is not wearable anymore--it's waay too big and I look like a homeless refugee. Part of me is cheering--but the other part is just as real and it is sad to see that sweatshirt go.  Sometimes it's nice to be fat and invisible--people pay more attention to beautiful people thus opening up a whole pandora's box of new ways to make mistakes. 

So---issues big and small.  Of COURSE being at a healthy weight outweighs the drawbacks. I think most overweight people know this and even accept it in their heads. It's the heart that needs a little help.