227 long day

Strangely don't feel nearly as badly about family as I did about Riley's baptism in Sept. I think it's because I'm in control--more or less. I only have to make decisions and others can act however they want. Whereas with the baptism, it was too important to me that people that I couldn't control behaived in a certain way. Anyway, I'm grateful for the absence of depressed feelings today. Although today will be a LONG day.  I got up early to take Dave to the airport, then to work, then a stats test right after--those always take at least 2 1/2 hours and then harp lesson right after that. I won't be done till 8 or 9 tonight.  Too long. But some bright spots are that today is the bookclub lunch--maybe that shouldn't qualify as a bright spot since it means eating off track, but it IS nice to have a break today.  Also, I've learned from previous experience not to take a test hungry, so I have some nuts and deli meat. Actually, this weekend is proving hard to manage--I might go to the movies tomorrow, and I hope to be taking Christine out to dinner, and I'll be doing the grocery shopping for Thanksgiving. Overscheduling is always an issue. This weekend is my choice though--I only HAVE to do the shopping, pick up Dave from the airport on Sunday, and take Christine out. I WANT to do a bunch of Christimas shopping. Anyway---I continue to mantain what for me is a low weight, but it's frustrating, because I want to lose---I just don't want to work for it.  I'm also still fantasizing about Cheesecake Factory Buffalo bites, but it would be awfully expensive to take Christine there--not to mention setting a horrible example and blowing my eating plan all at the same time.  Just no end to the bad choices a person can make, :)