193 open door

Long day---class in the morning, and I'm teaching the first year experience class tonight--I won't be done till 8:30. I planned out the day tho. I've eaten an early dinner, which I like doing even less than eating a late one, but my body will no doubt appreciate it. The most important thing though by far is that I've opened the door of communication with my sister Lisa. She is a wonderful person, but I've avoided talking about anything deep for YEARS because of guilt over the many things I've left undone and also fear both of her reactions and all the awful things I would hear about my family. True or not these revelations always kill me to hear. Still, she's worth the effort and it's more than high time that I faced my past and tried doing something about the present rather than just worry pointlessly about it.  Sure enough, both of us have vast amounts of pent up emotions that want to come rushing out. We've only been emailing meaningful things for about 3 days and we're both already on information and emotional overload. But it's been a good thing.  A VERY good thing. And I believe it will be a healing and wonderful thing for both of us.  It's like lancing a boil--all sorts of gross things come out and then there can be healing.  The reason I mention it here is that I'll bet that wading through some of these emotional burdens has got to result in some weight loss. That's not why I reached out of course, but I've long known that being overweight was much more about emotion than it ever was about food.  I hope both of us will soon be free-er and happier than we've been before.