Weigh Day--190. What the heck?! I even went out of my way to eat early last night thank you very much. I just hate it when the scale goes up. It scares me. In this case--my exercise is way down thanks to my knee, and I haven't reduced my food intake so I guess I shouldn't be surprised. But still...I just can't help thinking about all the things I didn't eat that I would very much like to have eaten and I think I should be rewarded for all things I pass up!!
In truth though, I've been coasting for a long time and I know it. The thing is that I'm not quite sure what I want to do about it. With all my heart I do NOT want to be eating even less or more restrictively--certainly not for the long haul. I'm afraid of starting something I can't keep up--and how discouraging would it be if I actually hit goal weight only to gain it all back? So I'm feeling stuck today. Unwilling to make more food changes--but afraid that if I don't I'll be sitting at this weight for the rest of my life. I don't want to get to 155 and find out that maintaining that weight means living a lifestyle that I find horrible.
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